LOOK INTO THE LOOKING GLASS.

I wake up everyday in a huge white bed, open windows that look out to the beautiful city skyline. My floors are wooden shiny, and a little cold. I stretch and prepare a small cereal bowl full of my favorite fruits, turn on my favorite Erykah Badu album. I would love to wake up to this. I'd drive in an all black audi or maybe even a BMW car during the week heading to the office in place of my own radio show. I get calls for advice, prank some people, play my favorite hits that are popping this year the day ends and I go home to my favorite person. Whoever the person is. I check my bank account and is filled with more than enough money to buy some new things I've seen on Nordstroms website. Life is all that I would ever dream of. Simple, content, no drama, no stress.

 I wake up in a cold sweat, something doesnt feel right. I suddenly feel the need to reach out to my mom. I know she hasnt been feeling so well, I need to speak to her at this very instant. The phone would ring, but shes not gonna pick up. I dont panic, because I know shes a heavy sleeper. But her phone is usally very loud. Its 4:30 in the morning who would be up at this time? I call my brother and ask why our mother wouldnt be answering the phone. He tells me shes been in the hospital and immediately my heart sinks into my stomach. 1000 questions race into my mind and so would fear. Why didnt anyone tell me? Why wasnt I contacted sooner. So much for communication. My heart hurts because I dont know if shes okay. I've been far away why couldnt I reach out myself. My brother tells me shes sick, but she'll be okay. Scared but relieved shes still around. I could wake up one day and have to face that my mom could be gone.

I move to New Orleans, weird because I dont like hot places. I live in a swampy area, and oddly I
enjoy it. I'm a voodoo doctor. I've talked about being one when I was younger. I've also been told "Voodoo believes in you wether you believe in it or not." I make things happen for the locals who live in the area as well. I try to make nothing but good things happen for people who come to me, but some get greedy. They use my voodoo to hurt others and thats not what I intended.

And I heard'em say nothing's ever promised tomorrow today. 

Life is all four seasons.

I just want to feel completed.  

Accomplishments, and goals.

I can see it now, not too far from now.

Beautiful beach vacations.

I see it every time I open my text book...

And lay in it. I dream of this.

It's so close but not too far.

No one can hold me back from creating 

My dream to a reality. 

Shiny cars and trips with the stars would be nice.

A 401k and millions of dollars would be better. 

I can see it, I can really see it.

Never worry about a thing. 

My dreams are my life promises.

It can easily happen tomorrow.

But as it was sung,

Nothing's ever promised tomorrow today. 

MINIMALIST MUCH

                                      

 

The pictures I chose are simple. Minimalist. I want to be comfortable, live in comfortable spaces and live comfortably. Money is oddly my motivation to get to what I want the most, I need money to get into the space that I dream of. A lot of my days seem cloudy, and filled with never ending storms, but I know one day itll be filled with blue skies. White sandy beaches. Warm winds. I can clearly picture this in my mind. I write my thoughts down in that blue notebook, because I can often be forgetful. The pages are filling up, and i'm glad I have this journal as my reminder. Never forget.  I want all my thoughts and plans to be clear, and precise. Clear Channel is ironically the company in media and entertainment that I hope to intern/work for soon. Currently these are all the things I see in my future. Clear. Simple. Clean. Comfortable.

Not far now.

You'll stand in the sun.

Think clearly.

Be free.

You'll see everything thats meant to be.

BE A BETTER YOU.

      To be honest I wake up everyday trying to figure out what I could add more passion too. All my life I remeber being apart of something, I think I could love but later hating it and wanting to quit. Whether it was an afterschool program, a club that I started with friends, or job. I ALWAYS find a way to say its not for me. Like Kanye said "I'm so gifted at finding what I dont like the most." But in the past two and half years of my life, I've realized I do have a strong passion for music, media, and entertainment. For goodness sake Oprah is my idol! This is what I study and watch. In school im studying media and communications (not for journalism) but for things like public relations and radio. In the generation im living in now the internet is just part of our everyday lives. Fashion, music, art etc. these things are validated on the internet. We share our lives, create businesses, keep in contact with friends, and some even find love! The media world relies on this. Its amazing. Everyday for the rest of my life I wish I could watch the world grow, and do amazing things. I want to be apart of that. I want to create trends, and movements that world will forever witness so long as the internet exist. 

          I want to wake up and say "hey, this brand/movement/music moved people and I'm grateful to be apart of that." Public relations is what I really want to do with my career. They do it all and they make their brand/clients look good. For example I want to have a client thats does an ad that inspires all women that they are beautiful/they shouldnt be ashamed of who they are. I want to be apart of projects that really mean something, and people will ALWAYS remember it. Same with pushing songs that'll never leave someones head. Its all about memorable experiences for me. The way humans connect means everything to me. The internet is our universal language. I think I could connect my passion with my career, by being part of a business that creates reminders and tips to the world on how we can be better humans. "Kill them with kindness," they say. You never know touched a person would be if they saw a sign about how everything gets better, or treat a person how you would want to be treated sign on the highway or in their neighborhood.

I would like to serve everyone. Although my ad's/messages/support of certain songs may not be able to reach everyone, but that is the goal. Building a better healthier happier humanity is what I truly want. Every day you turn on the news someone has been murdered, a school shooting has happened, cops and citizens are at war, deadly viruses  have spread. These things are scary and depressing. But you know what changes that? Music, appreciation of the beauty in art, even small gentle reminders. I want whatever I put out and advertise to people that "everythings going to be alright."

Passion.
Ignite my fire.
Make me remember why,
ill love what I am about to do.
Music.
Take me higher.
Set my soul on fire.
Turn up the volume, and
let me get lost in that tune.
Just sing to me like Sade, or
Miss Erykah Badu.
Smooth like the waves that
ride the sea.
Love.
You dont ever get taught how.
You just do. Grow to love you.
Show others to love themselves too.
Dreams.
When oppurtunity knocks, 
will fear leave and determination
stand beside me?
I was told, yes. Never fear no.
Connection
Talk to yourself, believe in you.
You believe in them, and remind
them why they should to.