9 to 5's WILL NEVER BE PERMANENT.

   I'm so grateful I've been able to work and make money over the past nine months. My first semester
of college in November I got hired into my first retail job working at the gap. It was the most horrible experience ever, but I had never really had a retail before then so I didnt know what to expect. I was being paid 8.75 hourly, and being paid once a week. Sounds awesome right? The training was long and they expect you to remember so much in so little time. The customers were snobby, rude and needy. I worked long hours and still never say more than two hundred dollars in a weeks worth of a check. Didnt have enough to get back and forth to school or pay my phone bill. I struggled for a while. Struggling really hurt my soul. I remember getting up at 4:30 a.m, just to be there on black friday. Oddly there was a fire on the train tracks and I decided to go all the way back home. After that they started giving me less hours, after the holidays they eventually gave me none. No warning. Nothing. Just like that I was let go. With this experience I had learned the importance of saving money, not thinking ALL jobs are good jobs, and learning when to say no.

   Realistically, i'm glad I went through my experience working at the Gap. It not only quickly opened new doors for employment oppurtunities, I also took some retail skills along with me. Like cashier, cleaning, customer service etc. Right now I am blessed have a better job than all of my last and it only took less than a year. Knowing what my end results are for is what makes it allllllllllllllll better. I mean the money does too, but knowing that my resume just looks better and better with experience is so exicting to me.
   Even on my worst days I just tell myself to "thug this sh*t out." In other words: YOU CAN DO IT. I have people cheering for me at my finish line. Bills have to paid, and the money has to be made. My mom counts on me as much as I count her now. I'm getting so much life experience by just having a job. You strugle from time to time, I cant say I love it, but I do love everything that I get from it. I'm glad im in good spaces with people and from what they've told me I know everytime I get a job/have a job im doing the right thing. Whenever i'm at work day dreaming of a better life for me, I snap back to reality and realize these are the steps I have to take temporarily until I get where i'm going and im 100% fine with that.